What if it’s just an excuse?

by Starla J. King on March 6, 2015

What if it’s just an excuse, this writing thing?

What if it’s just an excuse to live softly, senses-first, engaged foremost in the itty-est bitty-est details of the space around — and within — me?

What if what I really want is the freedom to live against the grain, and “I’m a writer” is more about what I take in than what I write out?

What if my greatest accomplishment isn’t the book that comes out next, but the way I need to live (intentionally, exuberantly, quietly, gently, bravely, “don’t f*ck with my purpose”-ly) in order to create the book?

What if — dare I admit it? — I’m more committed to a daily living practice than a daily writing practice?

What if

oh dear God, this is the stuff of (my) nightmares, 

what if

my dream of being a writer is more about living, about loving, than about <whisper> putting words to paper?

Then so be it.

Because a thing that nudges me, pulls me, drags me, teases me to the richer reaches of living?  I’ll take that excuse any day.

And chances are, I’ll write about it.

 

fire and ice

Fire and Ice

 

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{ 9 comments… read them below or add one }

S March 6, 2015 at 9:32 am

yes

PS this site always acts like i’ve never been here. doesn’t remember me/email etc.

such it is

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Starla J. King March 6, 2015 at 9:37 am

well shoot, Svn, I’m so sorry about this site treating you as a stranger! Must not be picking up cookies correctly for you??

And… thank you for the YES.

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Robert March 6, 2015 at 11:19 am

Yes, Starla!! Artfully, truthfully said!
(Maybe your site thinks S is for suspect? Or there can only be one S – Starla?!)

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Starla J. King March 10, 2015 at 4:43 pm

Well, S is indeed suspect, isn’t he, R? 😉

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Marybeth March 6, 2015 at 11:36 am

Wow. I love this being so gutsy. And it makes perfect sense,and perfect feelings, to live from that Place which leads to writing and not the other way around.
You continue to inspire!

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Starla J. King March 10, 2015 at 4:44 pm

Thank you, Mb! It’s been an ongoing evolution over here…

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Beth Monaghan March 9, 2015 at 11:28 am

Starla — There you go again saying the thing I (and so many others) need to hear. Yes, to living.

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Starla J. King March 10, 2015 at 4:45 pm

To living, Beth! (And to writing the things WE need to hear… just in case others also need to hear them too)

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Heidi King December 4, 2015 at 10:01 pm

A gem! One of those where there’s nothing left to say because it would ruin the silence.

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